I was ruminating the other night about the
smut, porn, erotica that I write for you guys and what it means to me. I know – this shouldn’t be one of those questions that keeps me up at night but what can I say? It did keep me up and this write up is what I have to show for it.
When I began this lesbian erotica journey almost a year ago, I was honestly in it just for the money. I read so many online forums and stories of folks making a living off of writing smut that I decided, why not? I would give it a try and see how far I could go – it wouldn’t cost me much more than my time and imagination. And anyway, how difficult could it be to write about two women getting it on? Seriously.
But here I am, months later and I have to say, writing erotica, specifically lesbian erotica is not what I thought it would be. I think I expected to find smart, well written, well thought out characters and situations. I think I expected to be slowly (or roughly if that’s what I was looking for) seduced by the author’s words into getting my rocks off. I was more than eager to sample various writings along the way and simultaneously make my mark. I was excited to be a working author and to join the lesbian erotic writer’s in the smut lit fray!
I laugh at myself now because I had NO CLUE that lesbian erotica was such a miniscule pool and that much of the writings out there would be geared towards men, written by women who weren’t lesbian or written by a man. Now before you go clicking away, I am not a man hating lesbian – I love men, they are pretty awesome and not just as the other 50% of the baby making equation or for fixing things. As a card carrying lesbian, I am not averse to the male physique. I just have no inclination to have sex with a man or to marry one. My surprise is really at how under-served the lesbian erotic genre is.
Before I get tarred and feathered, I have run across some lesbian erotica authors who are really good but by far that would seem to be the exception and not the rule. So I got to thinking some more – what do I want my writing to be? What does it mean to me?
I want my erotica to be smart, I want it to be genuine, I want it to be encompassing, I want it to move and delight whomever is reading it. I want my writing to stir my readers and compel them to examine their own reasons into love making or fucking. I want it to be good in the least and memorable in the long run.
Though its been some time since I last published for you guys (I’ve been unwell for some weeks – booo!!) I want the erotica that I write for you all to matter.
So tell me – what does lesbian erotica mean to you? And why do you read it?
Love You, Mean It,